Babblings of a happy girl

Yes, it has been a ridiculously long time since I have been on here. My life has been a constant up and down lately, but as always I keep a positive outlook even on the days I want to just sit alone and cry. It has now been 11 months that I am single. where most would say this is a sad thing I am actually pretty happy about it at the moment.I know that when the time is right I will find the man that is right for me. I am not looking nor am I sitting around and waiting. I am living and intending on living my way for a long time. I am working on my art, life, happiness, making money, dancing and everything else that makes me smile. I don't have to answer to anyone and I dont have to worry about calling, texting, making sure I tell someone where I am or going or wondering the same for them. It isnt that I want to become asexual or anything. I am just lvoing my apartment and the fact that it is mine.......I am loving my life and the fact that it is my own.......and the awesome fact that If I want to be a goof ball I can. I can be myself.
I am working on my bucket list more and more. I am trying to get some Katana lessons and also working on setting up classes with my partner to teach our dance to. I am also very excited because this year will be the first year I will be attending Dragoncon!!! I cant wait. I already got one of my costumes in the mail and can't wait to put it on!!!
 Thousands upon thousands of people that are dorks ust like me!!! I cant believe how awesome this will be. Any who.... I am also dancing again which is making me happier, tomorrow finally going to one of my favorite dive places...MJQ's. Ok now I feel I am really rambling when all I wanted to do was update my working journal of sorts. ah well.
I hope everyone has a beautiful night and a wonderful morning! Peace, Love and Happiness!

 

Rant

So these past few days have been quite the interesting ones. I got a Job...yes me a semi professional job that does not involve art. I can't believe it myself. I will be an insurance agent. I am actually kind of excited (and nervou) about this and it seems that only a couple of people are supportive about it. It is funny how people have been nagging on me about having a "real" job and when I finally decided to get one I get knocked for the type that I get..hey Im not picky and maybe this will work out maybe it wont. I am still proud of myself. Is that wrong? NO!! so why is it so dis-heartining to hear such negative comments? I guess that this month has just been a series of negative things that I have entered into myself;

• Ex came to town
• Ex is married
• My Best Friend has been kidnapped from her boyfriend (Not negative, but I feel like I haven't seen her in forever by ourselves. *
• My dad saying some negative things 
• A guy in H&M telling me I am fat
• Losing my necklace
• just feeling poopy 

Now all of these things aren't life threatening nor am I saying that my issues are more important than otehrs. Just saying that I have felt poopy all month and I am getting done with the little things helping the mood out. I am still hopeful of the future, hoping that this job will help me gain what I need to move onward and upward. This isnt the final adventure for Becca, this is a start to a new and exciting change. 

* So I don't know why I feel as if I am having withdrawls from my best friend. Maybe I am mad because she hasn't mentioned working on our show since they started dating, maybe we haven't gone out and danced in a while. All these things that we said we do together we arent doing ..... biggest being our show that we were working on! well lets hope see feels better tongiht and can come over, I'll talk to her and hopefully things will work out. 

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