Day 1 of the Month

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So day five of nightmares. I am getting pretty tired of not having a good nights rest. I don't understand why they are coming at me like this. I haven't had a strand of these in a long time. At least my anxiety levels are gone at the moment so maybe tonight wont be so freaking bad. My neighbors must think I am a nut house. hahaha Gracious my poor cat could use a good nights sleep, I think I made him crazier than he already was. Despite the nightmare funk things are still looking good for me. I just the okay to design a Catalogue/Magazine for the Motor Coach company. Yeah! Still on for the High top design, and been knocking out my photos. Now to only catch up with my crafty Etsy stuff. Busy week for me! :-)

Its been a long time baby

Image via WikipediaImage via WikipediaI know I haven't written in this blog for a while. Updating the "breakup" blog has kept my attention and it seems that I was just leading myself on and on and on. I realized that getting over someone isn't just a process of recording daily habits and schedules. I am living my life and I am forgiving myself for the way I feel. I will always love him. He was a big part of my life. I can never forget him. I have learned from this and grew from this. Things will get better, they are looking up. I know there will always be ups and downs but I know now that I have people that love me, people that I can talk to, and people that can protect me. In ways that may not be what others would think. I have made new friends, rekindled old, and realized that I am my own person and people love me for me. I will dance to my own drum beat, I will laugh at myself sometimes, and yes, sometimes I will trip and fall.. The important part is I have to get back up and know when to ask help when I need it. So I vow to keep blogging, even if no one reads it. I want to write, I want to keep this going. I hope that the night is filled with stars for you to gaze upon and wish for as many wishes your heart dares to dream.