The Messenger

Image via WikipediaWe all have that something or someone that always is there to remind us that we are loved, cherished or thought of. Lately I have noticed how blessed I really am to have people around me that love me. I also have noticed that for the first time in my life I am being noticed outside my friends and family. People look at me. I get attention. Yes, as vain as it might sound I am really liking this attention, its new and exciting to me. I was always that geeky kid in the corner that people made fun of. I still am a huge dork but not apparently its something people look at. haha
I have been in Fort Lauderdale for a few days so far and now I remember why I love it down here. the ocean, sunsets, sunrises, weather, restaurants, its just great down here. At least to visit any way haha. I have been having a really good time here. I love being here. It reminds me how good life is, and that no matter what happens there still is beauty in the world and there will always be a way out even if I don't see it right away. I will be okay, I am living my life, don't hate me for that. This is my one life to live, I will live it the way I want it and not the way people think I should live it! I Love it!

Its been a long time baby

Image via WikipediaImage via WikipediaI know I haven't written in this blog for a while. Updating the "breakup" blog has kept my attention and it seems that I was just leading myself on and on and on. I realized that getting over someone isn't just a process of recording daily habits and schedules. I am living my life and I am forgiving myself for the way I feel. I will always love him. He was a big part of my life. I can never forget him. I have learned from this and grew from this. Things will get better, they are looking up. I know there will always be ups and downs but I know now that I have people that love me, people that I can talk to, and people that can protect me. In ways that may not be what others would think. I have made new friends, rekindled old, and realized that I am my own person and people love me for me. I will dance to my own drum beat, I will laugh at myself sometimes, and yes, sometimes I will trip and fall.. The important part is I have to get back up and know when to ask help when I need it. So I vow to keep blogging, even if no one reads it. I want to write, I want to keep this going. I hope that the night is filled with stars for you to gaze upon and wish for as many wishes your heart dares to dream.