Thursday, May 19, 2011


So these past few days have been quite the interesting ones. I got a Job...yes me a semi professional job that does not involve art. I can't believe it myself. I will be an insurance agent. I am actually kind of excited (and nervou) about this and it seems that only a couple of people are supportive about it. It is funny how people have been nagging on me about having a "real" job and when I finally decided to get one I get knocked for the type that I get..hey Im not picky and maybe this will work out maybe it wont. I am still proud of myself. Is that wrong? NO!! so why is it so dis-heartining to hear such negative comments? I guess that this month has just been a series of negative things that I have entered into myself;

  • Ex came to town
  • Ex is married
  • My Best Friend has been kidnapped from her boyfriend (Not negative, but I feel like I haven't seen her in forever by ourselves. *
  • My dad saying some negative things 
  • A guy in H&M telling me I am fat
  • Losing my necklace
  • just feeling poopy 
Now all of these things aren't life threatening nor am I saying that my issues are more important than otehrs. Just saying that I have felt poopy all month and I am getting done with the little things helping the mood out. I am still hopeful of the future, hoping that this job will help me gain what I need to move onward and upward. This isnt the final adventure for Becca, this is a start to a new and exciting change. 

* So I don't know why I feel as if I am having withdrawls from my best friend. Maybe I am mad because she hasn't mentioned working on our show since they started dating, maybe we haven't gone out and danced in a while. All these things that we said we do together we arent doing ..... biggest being our show that we were working on! well lets hope see feels better tongiht and can come over, I'll talk to her and hopefully things will work out. 

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1 comment:

  1. Becca,

    It seems like this job will help you break away from the rut that you are in. Life is usually filled with tests and difficult times that one must endure. During these difficult times, one realizes that a change is needed in order to improve some aspects of one's life. Regardless of how insignificant this job might be for some people, for you this is the chance of breaking away from being dependent on people in general as you will work for yourself, meet new people, face problems at work that will help you build character. People around you are starting to build their lives such as your ex, and best friend. In case you have not realized it, this is the opportunity that could bring you closer to reality and leave the past behind. People learn from the past, but you have to stop living in it and give yourself more credit than you do. Improve yourself but only for you, stop dreaming that a guy in a horse is going to come and rescue you! Something that I would recommend is to do things by yourself that you have never done before. This is the time to confront your fears no matter how small they are!!