You never want a significant other until random times. Like now, IT is 2:15 as I write this and I have insomnia mixed with an anxiety chaser. It would be nice to be able to call someone and have them come over. The problem with this being that I am scared. I talk to guys and it seems that there is nothing, no spark, no desire, add that to being afraid to make a move, afraid of trusting again, and afraid of love it all can get very exausting. I don't need but want, I don't listen but I hear, I don't know but I learn...sometimes you have to think of all the balances that we create.