Life can be funny sometimes. It throws curve balls, bumps, detours, construction and good things all at different times. Sometimes it seems as if all the negative things happen at once. I tend to dream about places over the rainbow, lands and adventures far away. I think most creative people do. I often think that all the times that I get put down by things it is so hard to bring myself back up, but I do. Some how I always do. I have help most times, friends, family and love. I believe that one day I will find my place in life. Maybe I have found it and I am trying to fight some of it. Maybe I am a bit lost at times. I form attachments just like everyone else, I make mistakes Just like everyone else.
Some sad news, my squirrel had something wrong with him and passed during the night. I am very upset about this. I needed that little guy. he was making me very happy. The boy wants to get me a kitten and as much as I want one, I feel bad and as if I don't deserve one. I know that once everything is sorted it will be a good thing for me to have one. Plus he is trying really hard to make me feel better.Things have been pretty rough these past few months for me. I have been more open to him about my feelings, even though sometimes they are said in shouting matches, or anger. I think he finally knows how I feel.